Wow! It' really been a long time since I've posted. Here's the short version of the last 10 days. Went to the Dells with hubby and a couple of friends. Had a blast. Involving little sleep and lots of food (among other things). Came home and surprise! It's Halloween and candy made its way into the house. And because I was already on a sugar buzz from the long weekend, the candy made its way into my mouth. How did that happen, she said innocently? Because the girl can't help herself.
And that where I'm at today. Once again having proved that when it comes to sugar-related foods, I have no brakes. None. Whatsoever. And I just need to accept that, move on and use the tools that keep me from eating my way back to 280 lbs. And those tools are eliminating those foods as options for me and tracking my food on a daily basis. I keep thinking at some point I shouldn't need to do that anymore but this seems more like a chronic condition that requires daily treatment to keep from flaring up. I have rosacea which requires daily use of skin cream and will never be cured. Is it out of the realm of possibility that my inability to eat just a little bit of sugary treats and desserts is also incurable? Most people probably say no but really, if I have to be honest, I have to say yes. That is certainly simpler than this back and forth I've been doing.
So back to the food tracking and out with sugar once again. Needless to say I undid all the progress I made last month and am starting over again.
Update on the problem with my hands and wrists. Everything is pretty much the same. If I take a buttload of Motrin every day it's managable but still painful. If I don't I'm miserable and cranky and hurt like hell. My EMG got rescheduled until the end of November so I'm contacting the doctor to get the referral to the hand surgeon she wanted to send me to. It will probably take a month to get an appointment. In the meantime, I try to not take too much Motrin and force myself to go to the gym. I decided since the weather was starting to get bad, that I would go a couple more mornings to do cardio, either treadmill or bike, and then get into the whirlpool. It seems to help with the pain at least for a while. I have to say it's getting really old though. It's definitely coloring my outlook on the world.
In the meantime, it's one foot in front of the other as far as my fitness/weight loss efforts go. I do the lifting and the walking, along with the food plan, and take the results as they come. That's all I can do at this point. Hopefully some day I'll be back to feeling like a fit energetic person again.
