Wow! It' really been a long time since I've posted. Here's the short version of the last 10 days. Went to the Dells with hubby and a couple of friends. Had a blast. Involving little sleep and lots of food (among other things). Came home and surprise! It's Halloween and candy made its way into the house. And because I was already on a sugar buzz from the long weekend, the candy made its way into my mouth. How did that happen, she said innocently? Because the girl can't help herself.
And that where I'm at today. Once again having proved that when it comes to sugar-related foods, I have no brakes. None. Whatsoever. And I just need to accept that, move on and use the tools that keep me from eating my way back to 280 lbs. And those tools are eliminating those foods as options for me and tracking my food on a daily basis. I keep thinking at some point I shouldn't need to do that anymore but this seems more like a chronic condition that requires daily treatment to keep from flaring up. I have rosacea which requires daily use of skin cream and will never be cured. Is it out of the realm of possibility that my inability to eat just a little bit of sugary treats and desserts is also incurable? Most people probably say no but really, if I have to be honest, I have to say yes. That is certainly simpler than this back and forth I've been doing.
So back to the food tracking and out with sugar once again. Needless to say I undid all the progress I made last month and am starting over again.
Update on the problem with my hands and wrists. Everything is pretty much the same. If I take a buttload of Motrin every day it's managable but still painful. If I don't I'm miserable and cranky and hurt like hell. My EMG got rescheduled until the end of November so I'm contacting the doctor to get the referral to the hand surgeon she wanted to send me to. It will probably take a month to get an appointment. In the meantime, I try to not take too much Motrin and force myself to go to the gym. I decided since the weather was starting to get bad, that I would go a couple more mornings to do cardio, either treadmill or bike, and then get into the whirlpool. It seems to help with the pain at least for a while. I have to say it's getting really old though. It's definitely coloring my outlook on the world.
In the meantime, it's one foot in front of the other as far as my fitness/weight loss efforts go. I do the lifting and the walking, along with the food plan, and take the results as they come. That's all I can do at this point. Hopefully some day I'll be back to feeling like a fit energetic person again.
Friday, November 2, 2012
Monday, October 22, 2012
The New Normal
I'm starting to think this is the way it's going to be from here on out and I should just get used to it. Things get worse, things get better, it's always something. And I suppose if I really think about (and stop feeling sorry for myself!) that's pretty much the way everyone's life. is. It's just that for me, life has gotten really good in many, many ways but now it's my body that's the main irritation and source of concern.
The tendonitis in my wrist seems to slowly be getting better. I'm able to take the wrap off for short periods of time and the pain is more of a dull ache instead of sharp pain. The joints in my hands still hurt but it bothers me only in the morning and works itself out after a few hours. I've gotten a couple of test results back. The hypothyroid test was negative. The autoimmune antibody test was negative as well; however, it was on the high side of normal. I also saw that the rheumatoid arthritis factor test was a hair above normal (not what the doctor told me). I'm thinking of asking for another set of tests in 3-4 months to see if there is a trend or if that is normal for me. I haven't gotten the x-ray results yet and I'm having the EMG next Monday, so there's still more to come that may give a clearer picture.
The good news is that I lost another pound last week. Now at 225.6 lbs. I'm dropping another 100 calories a day this week (down to 2200) and adding more walking minutes. My plan is to drop 100 calories a week until I get to 1800 cal Mon-Fri and add minutes to my walking session until I'm up to 30 minutes per session. At that point I'll add a session of bike sprints. I want to do it slowly so my body gets used to less calories and more activity in a gentle way.
My workout this morning was really good. I had a small pang of "don't wanna go" but that passed quickly and I enjoyed being at the gym and working up a sweat. My hands hurt during my workout but I actually think it's good because I get some strength and mobility work for them. And that's never a bad thing.
The tendonitis in my wrist seems to slowly be getting better. I'm able to take the wrap off for short periods of time and the pain is more of a dull ache instead of sharp pain. The joints in my hands still hurt but it bothers me only in the morning and works itself out after a few hours. I've gotten a couple of test results back. The hypothyroid test was negative. The autoimmune antibody test was negative as well; however, it was on the high side of normal. I also saw that the rheumatoid arthritis factor test was a hair above normal (not what the doctor told me). I'm thinking of asking for another set of tests in 3-4 months to see if there is a trend or if that is normal for me. I haven't gotten the x-ray results yet and I'm having the EMG next Monday, so there's still more to come that may give a clearer picture.
The good news is that I lost another pound last week. Now at 225.6 lbs. I'm dropping another 100 calories a day this week (down to 2200) and adding more walking minutes. My plan is to drop 100 calories a week until I get to 1800 cal Mon-Fri and add minutes to my walking session until I'm up to 30 minutes per session. At that point I'll add a session of bike sprints. I want to do it slowly so my body gets used to less calories and more activity in a gentle way.
My workout this morning was really good. I had a small pang of "don't wanna go" but that passed quickly and I enjoyed being at the gym and working up a sweat. My hands hurt during my workout but I actually think it's good because I get some strength and mobility work for them. And that's never a bad thing.
Friday, October 19, 2012
Feeling Better
Still feeling pretty blah about workouts. I think it's the early morning hour, the fact that it's dark, cold and rainy in the morning and this pain in my hands and wrists (which is worse in the morning right after I wake up) that is making me so crabby about getting to the gym. The workout today was quite good and I felt stronger and more energized afterwards. Maybe I just need to keep telling myself I'll feel so much better if I get it done. That's the ticket.
No update on the tests. All I've gotten so far is the RA autoimmune test which was negative, as I figured it would be. The pain seems to be getting better, especially the tendonitis in my right wrist, so maybe it is healing although very slowly. Food is good but no weight loss yet. What do I expect when my deficit is not yet that deep? LOL
Onwards....
No update on the tests. All I've gotten so far is the RA autoimmune test which was negative, as I figured it would be. The pain seems to be getting better, especially the tendonitis in my right wrist, so maybe it is healing although very slowly. Food is good but no weight loss yet. What do I expect when my deficit is not yet that deep? LOL
Onwards....
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Some Days Feel Like Weeks
Very blah and unmotivated today. I almost didn't go to the gym because I felt so crappy (and crabby) when I woke up. But I knew if I didn't get to the gym to at least do SOMETHING that I'd be losing more ground in my journey. So to the gym I went...
I saw the doctor yesterday morning and didn't get many answers but just a lot of questions. Which still need to be answered. I had x-rays and lab tests yesterday to rule out osteoarthritis, wrist fracture, rheumatoid arthritis and hypothyroidism. I'm also having an EMG in two weeks to check for carpal tunnel damage. I go the results for the RA test back and that was negative. I'm almost hoping that something turns up so at least I'd have an answer that could be solved.
More update to come as I get results back....
I saw the doctor yesterday morning and didn't get many answers but just a lot of questions. Which still need to be answered. I had x-rays and lab tests yesterday to rule out osteoarthritis, wrist fracture, rheumatoid arthritis and hypothyroidism. I'm also having an EMG in two weeks to check for carpal tunnel damage. I go the results for the RA test back and that was negative. I'm almost hoping that something turns up so at least I'd have an answer that could be solved.
More update to come as I get results back....
Monday, October 15, 2012
My Traveling Nightmare
...or "No more connecting flights, ever again!"
My trip to Oakland was going so well until it came time to go home. The day started wonderfully, with a ferry ride across the bay to San Francisco. We didn't get to see much...just the Bay Bridge and a long-distance view of Alcatraz. From the Ferry Building we walked to the BART station for a 30 minute ride to the airport. My flight was scheduled for 1 pm and I had left early to take the ferry with a couple of people who were leaving earlier. No problem, I said. I can hang out for a couple of hours at the airport. Unfortunately for me (super unfortunate as it turned out), my flight was delayed long enough that I would miss my connecting flight in Dallas. Long story short, I wound up on a straight shot flight to Chicago that left at 7:30 pm San Fran time and didn't arrive in Chicago until 1:30 am. By the time I got home and in bed it was 3 am. I had to start my Friday with only 3 hours sleep. I am so bad when I don't get enough sleep.
Other than that, my trip went well. Only one workout but a lot of walking and my food was ok enough that I didn't take a weight gain hit. I'm back on my deficit plan and walking. Workouts will start again tomorrow. Time to grind it out to the goal!
My trip to Oakland was going so well until it came time to go home. The day started wonderfully, with a ferry ride across the bay to San Francisco. We didn't get to see much...just the Bay Bridge and a long-distance view of Alcatraz. From the Ferry Building we walked to the BART station for a 30 minute ride to the airport. My flight was scheduled for 1 pm and I had left early to take the ferry with a couple of people who were leaving earlier. No problem, I said. I can hang out for a couple of hours at the airport. Unfortunately for me (super unfortunate as it turned out), my flight was delayed long enough that I would miss my connecting flight in Dallas. Long story short, I wound up on a straight shot flight to Chicago that left at 7:30 pm San Fran time and didn't arrive in Chicago until 1:30 am. By the time I got home and in bed it was 3 am. I had to start my Friday with only 3 hours sleep. I am so bad when I don't get enough sleep.
Other than that, my trip went well. Only one workout but a lot of walking and my food was ok enough that I didn't take a weight gain hit. I'm back on my deficit plan and walking. Workouts will start again tomorrow. Time to grind it out to the goal!
Monday, October 8, 2012
California Dreamin'
Hey, guess where I am! I'm in Oakland, CA. Sitting in my hotel room after a looooong day of travel. My feet hurt and I haven't had dinner yet. Not complaining though.
Good thing #1: My food has been good today and I have no cravings or desire to overeat which traveling has a way of doing to me.
Good thing #2: The fitness center has weights. I thought I would be limited to a treadmill or bike but I'm walking so much I won't need those. I won't be able to do Rog's workouts but I'll cobble something awesome together using the dumbbells.
To update, I'm down another pound and feeling less bloated. I'm pretty fluffy right now though so I'm looking forward to getting these pounds off. I feel like my mindset is getting in the groove of the grind. So it's all good.
Good thing #1: My food has been good today and I have no cravings or desire to overeat which traveling has a way of doing to me.
Good thing #2: The fitness center has weights. I thought I would be limited to a treadmill or bike but I'm walking so much I won't need those. I won't be able to do Rog's workouts but I'll cobble something awesome together using the dumbbells.
To update, I'm down another pound and feeling less bloated. I'm pretty fluffy right now though so I'm looking forward to getting these pounds off. I feel like my mindset is getting in the groove of the grind. So it's all good.
Thursday, October 4, 2012
Mid-Week Check-In
And....so far, so good.
1. I'm down 2 lbs. of bloat and feeling much better.
2. Following my food plan.
3. Completed all 3 walks.
4. Up to 210 swings so far.
5. The new workout was tougher than I thought it would be. Especially the cable rows and ball plank. And looking at tomorrow's workout I can see I'll be stepping up my game to a new level.
1. I'm down 2 lbs. of bloat and feeling much better.
2. Following my food plan.
3. Completed all 3 walks.
4. Up to 210 swings so far.
5. The new workout was tougher than I thought it would be. Especially the cable rows and ball plank. And looking at tomorrow's workout I can see I'll be stepping up my game to a new level.
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